Liaa's Little Journal

   بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم Good day to everyone!  I am so freaking nervous because I just posted my first ever vlog(?) on YouTube! Freaking excited but I got no hopes at all for it to reach people 🤣  I've been posting videos on Instagram but goodness sake, I got no confidence to post them on YT. But, there is always the first time, right ?  So, here is the link .  or just click here! So, to more videos in the future!  Sweet dream peeps, Iylia.

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ Good day peeps! Cr to Mr Google It's not my photo and I'm freaking single. Declaration; I've been single for years and never really been in a real relationship. It's hard to explain but I'll try. There are times where I might feel like I'm desperately want to be in a relationship because of the loneliness I'm feeling but until the possibility is right in front of me, then I'll be chicken out. Like seriouly I'll be saying things such as, we're friends right?! and that what friends are for! and some other excuses that I usually used. And puff that person will suddenly be gone from my life. Haihh It just, I want someone but I'm not really gonna break that not having a boyfriend until I get marry stuff , I'm just freaking weird. Period. Many of my friends are in relationships, and I've witnes tons of happiness, mariage, heartbreaks and tears and etc. Many of them are happy stor...

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ "Out of many things in this life, you wanna capture the sunrise? Ah why is it?"  I remember someone asking me this and I couldn't really find the answer. The only thing I remember passing through my head was, "Sunrise give me hopes to start my day."  During my childhood days, I never really got a chance to watch sunrise and one day during a camp, I got  to enjoy this wonderful sunrise at the beach with my classmates. The warm feeling inside me, I couldn't really explain them by words but what I know is, when I grow up, I'll be capturing them every day, if not by camera then by my heart then.  I don't really remember having any memories of enjoying sunrise during my high school year but matriculation was a different story. I got to see them every day except rainy days obviously.    In Uni , I got to watch them a few times if I went to the Stadium (they got the best view!) and lucky me, since las...

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ Good day! I pray that everyone is safe wherever you are right now. Covid-19 outbreak is really something. I could say that 2020 started with a rough journey but yep, let's take this as a challange to keep us all strong through the rest of the year and to alwaya take care of ech other. So, this time entry is about my late night drive from uni towards home. I didn't drive alone and there were five people in the car including me. And this is (kinda) our running away from uni because we missed home and don't want to be stuck in the hostel. hahhaha I'm currently studying somewhere a bit far from home, a 8 hour drive if there's no traffic problem and probably 12 hour by bus, I think, well I always sleep during my bus trip.  Mid sem break was supposed to start on 28 March 2020 but then Restriction Movement Odder (RMO) happened, my mid semester break came early than expected. Many of my campus mate was alr...

  So your friend's been telling me You've been sleeping with my sweater And that you can't stop missing me   Bet my friend's been telling you I'm not doing much better 'Cause I'm missing half of me   And being here without you is like I'm waking up to Only half a blue sky Kinda there but not quite I'm walking around with just one shoe   I'm half a heart without you I'm half a man at best With half an arrow in my chest I miss everything we do   -One Direction , Half a Heart

Hey , I know it's hard but you will get through this.        I know you are trying your best to fake those smile and keep living. I know it's not easy but just for you to know, I'm proud of you.       I'm proud of you that you actually wake up every morning and force yourself out of your bed and face the world. I am proud that there are times when your smiles are real despite the hard times you're facing. I am proud of you that you keep loving despite your broken heart. I am proud of you that you keep still even if your knees are shaking. I am proud of you. Now, take a deep breath. I want you look around you, there are still people out there that still love you for you. But what's more important that, you need to love yourself first. No one's gonna be there for you beside yourself. Embrace you and have faith. I believe in you that you will get through this. I don't know how but we'll make it work. Keep praying and...

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ Hello and how are you ? Me? I'm doing fine, just finish reading a chapter from a book and yeah, a character died.  ...  I coudn't satnd it, it just. I'm so lost of words and I cried a bit so why not put it here.  I'm currently reading the City of Heavenly Fire by Cassendra Clare and someone died. It's a he, who died and I cry. I won't tell you who and how he died. No spoilers but I'm so sad. erghhhh. I remember a few days ago, my friend told me something about moving on and it takes time. A coincidence I guess but at least I got comfort after reading our chat. And I actually star them!   “Sometimes you must lose everything to gain it again, and the regaining is the sweeter for the pain of loss.” ― Cassandra Clare, City of Heavenly Fire   Been crying, Iylia