Liaa's Little Journal

You know , the damn feeling when you're scrollling the oh-called smartphone, trying to actually reach someone but then you realized, you got no one. Lonely as heck. I mean, look we were supposed to use the phone to reach for people around us and stay connected to them but; sigh .  I can't really explain my feeling at the moment but what I'm sure is, its hurt so much in here and I don't know why. Last night, I cried so bad and I keep mising someone; I'm not sure who is this someone but yep I can't help but to miss them. It felt like, there's a huge hole inside of me and nothing I do can help keeping me whole again. Life ain't really easy right now and I can't really call anyone even tho there's tons of contact number in the goddmn phone.  sh*t, I'm freaking lonely.  Sorry for cursing btw. But I just don't like troubling them with my un stable emotions because who knows that they might having it worse than what I'm currently feeli...

He was never mine , but losing him broke my heart.       Weird as it can seem ,this hit me hard; as always.        I hide everything so well because I know, there won't be any place for me in his heart and his eyes are set on his girl. I don't really mind but you know, the comfort of having him around. I just hate it when I keep letting my guard down.       Nevermind, things happened for reasons and some of it are supposed to help us out; making us even stronger and to never let our guard down. Okay ?     But if losing these friends gonna make me appriciate myself better, then never mind. :) Broken heart, Iylia