Liaa's Little Journal

It is weird really, to be holding on to someone or something, and wanting them to stay forever when we both know, nothing is eternal except from Him. I hate myself for getting attached to anyone and anything around me. But somehow, life is funny, I am always the one that is easily got too attach. To turn a new page for the next chapter is always hard. I carry the past with me as if they're still happening. To be honest, it is painful to be living with the memories. I want to keep moving on without holding onto them but I just can't let them go. How silly of me, right? I want to stop myself getting too sentimental about this but I can't help from feeling too much. People around me said to not think about it too much but those thoughts, feelings, emotions just come without warning. Most of the time, they are really suffocating while I am is barely breathing. Humm, life need to keep moving on right? I just gonna leave this small chat that that I had with my favourite person he

   بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم Good day to everyone!  I am so freaking nervous because I just posted my first ever vlog(?) on YouTube! Freaking excited but I got no hopes at all for it to reach people 🤣  I've been posting videos on Instagram but goodness sake, I got no confidence to post them on YT. But, there is always the first time, right ?  So, here is the link .  or just click here! So, to more videos in the future!  Sweet dream peeps, Iylia.

 It's delightful when your imaginations come true, isn't it?  

 بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ Hi and hello dearest! My fifth semester has done, finally! Even if I'm at home, I could say that my life was much more peaceful when I'm having face to face classes. For goodness sake, the assignments keep coming as if I had no life aside from being a student. But whatever, it's semester break, so let me enjoy my little freedom before going back to battle for my next semester.  So, currently I am currently having a marathon on a series on VIU called The Bridge. The Bridge is a Malaysian-Singaporean crime drama television series aired on HBO Asia, and starring Rebecca Lim and Bront Palarae. The series inspired by the Danish-Swedish series, Broen/Bron.  source : Google s u m m a r y   for   s e a s o n  1 : It all started when a female corpse discovered on the border of Singapore and Malaysia, forcing investigators from both countries to solve the crime and probe the social issues.  Bront Palarae represents Malaysia as semi-slob Detectiv

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم Khilaf poster I present you, my workshop 2 team short film; Khilaf! Be right back, I'm gonna cry. 😭 After months of struggling with assignments and life, we managed to finish workshop! Bravo girls, I'm just really proud of you all.  I'm bad at expressing myself, but I'm so so so grateful for the wonderful team members (the cast, our families and everyone that helped!) and the people around us! I love you to the moon and back y'all.  De'bunga and the casts The casts The hardships be worth it in the end, and please, I already start missing hanging out with them at the shooting place. Brb, I gonna start crying again.  ... To those who want to watch our short film, feel free to click here . Have fun watching and don't forget to give it a thumb up! Signing off for tonight, Iylia.  

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ Good day peeps! Cr to Mr Google It's not my photo and I'm freaking single. Declaration; I've been single for years and never really been in a real relationship. It's hard to explain but I'll try. There are times where I might feel like I'm desperately want to be in a relationship because of the loneliness I'm feeling but until the possibility is right in front of me, then I'll be chicken out. Like seriouly I'll be saying things such as, we're friends right?! and that what friends are for! and some other excuses that I usually used. And puff that person will suddenly be gone from my life. Haihh It just, I want someone but I'm not really gonna break that not having a boyfriend until I get marry stuff , I'm just freaking weird. Period. Many of my friends are in relationships, and I've witnes tons of happiness, mariage, heartbreaks and tears and etc. Many of them are happy stor